Three weeks of the month of June I worked at a Christian Summer Camp working with inner city kids. It was amazing. It was extremely challenging. I grew in my walk with God. I grew closer to friends. I was faced with incredible opportunities. I was faced with things I couldn't handle. I was challenged to look to God for everything.. or to walk in my own strength.
As I came home it was hard for me to allow my emotions to express themselves. At first it was like I was just shutting my emotions off, because I didn't feel like working through them. By the grace of God, friends praying for me as well as talking me through things, and writing. I now feel free. I can feel happy. I can feel sad. I can feel depressed. It's so much better to feel all of these emotions than to just shut them out. We were made to feel things. Not to shut them off.

Here's the poem I wrote that helped me begin to "feel" my emotions again. If you prayed for me, thanks. I appreciate it with all of my heart!


My heart feels sealed,
Because, with emotions it is filled.
As I lie here awake,
I wish that I could forsake
The emotions that I cannot find
That reside in my heart and mind.
As I close my eyes,
Faces and memories come to play.
However, all I desire
Is for these tears to fall.
I don't understand their reasons to stall.
I need to be set free,
So that I can begin to see,
What lies ahead.
No matter what is said,
I will press on.
I have only one plea:
Oh, please, rescue me!
Loose me from these chains,
Of my emotional pains,
So that I can be free
To sail across the sea.