Lately I have been working a lot... Sometimes I look at the hours I work in a week, the hours I sleep in a week, the hours cleaning, the hours talking, the hours doing "nothing", and even the hours I spend with my Redeemer. Life continues to go by so quickly.

Sometimes I depend on people too much. I know that they'll be there for me, (or I at least think that they will be). However, every single person in your life, if they haven't already let you down, I'm pretty confident they will let you down at some point in the future. Most likely they won't mean to let you down, but they're human just like us and they mess up too.

Life doesn't seem fair too often. Maybe it's just perspective... Maybe it's just my selfishness. Maybe it's the deepest parts of my heart searching for more...

Today... I went back in time to feeling like a kid who didn't have any friends. Feeling as if the friends that I did have were the ones stolen from me by my "enemies". It's amazing to see yourself in kids who are around ten and eleven years old. You see them crying and hurting. You see them explode. I knew this girl was hurt physically, but the reason the tears continued flowing was because her hurt is broken. She wanted it to be mended... I understood, but I couldn't fix it. I don't have forgiveness to offer her. I have been given a message and all that I can do with it is carry it forward. I cannot force anyone to listen or to accept it.

When I see other people hurting it breaks my heart. When they hurt, I hurt. When they laugh, I laugh. When they cry, I cry. When they're angry, I try to calm them down, but sometimes I become angry.

Some things make me so upset... These are a lot of jumbled thoughts. I probably shouldn't post this, but I'm going to. I'll look back on it in a few months and that will be my life. :)

I think I should make a point to post on this every single day.. Hmm.. I'll have to think abou it.